Broken Words

Our voices soft
Each one in pain
Unseen
Hidden within
Only escaping
When the moment is right
Laying there
Alone
Broken
And crying
I can't help but text him
After I blocked him off everything
Telling him I miss him
Surprised when he texts me back
I tilt my head knowing
That he shouldn't
He can't do international texting
But he does anyway
After awhile I lay there
And cry silently to myself
Pleading to whatever God and or Goddess is out there
Why
Why does it have to be this way
I drag my dead body out of bed
Tell my friend that's next me
Oblivious to the tears streaking down my face
"I'm going to take a shower"
Syn I tell him brb
The man I love I tell brb
I undress and crawl into the shower
Turn on the water
Shake and shiver with sobs
Tears and water mixing together
20 minutes I stay like that..
The warm water hearing my skin
My eyes leaking away their sorrows
My body shaking
My friend still oblivious as to what is going on
Finally I get out, get dressed, climb back into bed with her
Hold my body pillow tight
Digging my face into it
I tell him I need him, I need to hear his voice.
So that's what happens
He calls
I listen
I cry
And tell him how sorry I am
I cry and plead with him that I would go home with him
But I can't
I have to stay here
But he can't hear me
My voice is so low
I let out a sigh and let him talk me to sleep.

-Summer

Reviews

[Fenix Flight]

Im so sorry that this is happening to you sis. I know it sucks and its NOT right. And I wish I knew when the light at the end of the tunnel was. I really wish I did. BUt I dont. all I can give you is my love and tell you that I am here for you when you need me and when you dont. I'm always here. no matter what