My Life-Wondering

The fever
It burns
Hot and bright
In my system
Burning my skin
Red welts
Covering my pale skin
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The tears flow
Uncontrollably
Whimpering
Make it stop
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But hunny
This fever isnt
Curable
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Its forever
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Crumbling
Breaking
Down
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Where the hell did my sanity go.?
Where the hell did my life go
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Years later ill be sitting there like
Was I really that stupid
Naive even.?
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God who knows
Whats gonna happen
But im rooting for the best
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Secretly hoping for the worst
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Lips playing with the words
Tasting them
On my tongue
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Biting into them
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Is that what its gonna be
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Until
I grow into an adult
Or will these thoughts always be haunting
Taunting even
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Someone let me know.?

~
Summer-Skye