What Im Feeling

I wrote this lastnight but i felt better putting it here.

Right now,
I feel useless I feel like s**t beneath someone's shoe
I don't feel good enough
Worthy enough
I don't feel like a single soul could love me
I have so much s**t wrong with me
I don't deserve it
I'm greedy Rude
Pestering
Depressed all the time
Suicidal from time to time Annoying
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My looks aren't any better I look like some hobo off the street
People tell me I'm beautiful
Or I'm pretty
Or I look good in that outfit
Get a new hair style
OMG that looks so cute on you
I smile and say thank you
But in the back of my head I'm thinking
Please your just saying that to make me feel good
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I'm worth nothing I deserve nothing I don't.
I don't deserve the very life that was given to me
Because all iv done with it is Mistreat it and destroy it
F**k everything and everything up
I DO NOT BELONG HERE.
I want nothing more then to crawl into a hole And die.
Give the life that was given to me back to the sweet earth Back to the universe.
And give it to someone who needs It more.
Someone who won't abuse and mistreat it.
I hate my life I hate who I am Iv never done anything right,
I'm always getting yelled at for something.
I.. Don't... What.... To..... Be...... Here....... Anymore........

-Summer Skye.

Reviews

[MomzillaNC]

What a visceral, self-castigating rant…

I'm glad you feel better now than when you wrote this. It does seem, sometimes, that life is overwhelming, that everything and everyone deserves so much more than we feel capable of giving. I can't know, really, what you're feeling. But, I do know that feeling of worthlessness… of being nothing more than filth to be cast off by the universe. In the end, it's a self-defeating perspective and not really our own. It's what all those lies… the daily minutia of society telling us we're not good enough unless we do that something whatever they're pushing that moment… It's the whispering, screaming conversation of people who think they know… who think they've got the right to tell you who you should be and that you're not good enough. It's our giving in to all that noise… letting the cacophony drown out the voice deep within our own soul… the only voice that really knows… that will always tell us that we ARE good enough… we ARE strong enough… we ARE smart enough… we ARE worthy enough… we ARE beautiful… we ARE loved. I pray you find your ear again to listen to that voice.

[Nevaeh Flight]

I don't really know what to say to all of you, I mean.. Just thank you.. It really means a lot

[Lichelle]

im sure your mind changed right after you wrote this. If this is how you REALLY felt you and your powerful writing wouldnt be with us

[Fenix Flight]

I love you so much sis! more then anyone else in this world. I am always here for you if you need an ear or hell if you need a punching bag. I'll be whatever you need me to be. I'm right here for you. and I am NEVER going to STOP being there for you. I am not going anywhere. If you ever need someone I will drop everything and be there for you in a heart beat.

I know this life sucks like hell but dont give up just yet. There is still so much out there for you waiting for you to discover. I cant say I know what your going through. no one does but you. but I am willing to try to understand. if or when you ever decide to let me in. and if you dont want to then that is fine as well. I'll just be there to bug ya and love ya and annoy the crapola out of you.

But no matter what always know that I love the living daylights out of you!!!! and nothing in this world or life will EVER change that

[Hawk Flight]

Little LF. I know Exactly how you feel. You feel like nothing but a parisite to everything and everyone around you sucking the happyness out of life. I know that feeling.

but there are people out there who Truly love you. Look at your sister! Your boyfriend. they love you and will do EVERYTHING to help you. I know the whole You dont let anyone in or see you break. But trust me when I say that just makes you feel more alone. Let them in and let them pick you back up. Its the best feelign in the world. It makes you realize that you are not as alone as you think you are.

They would never lie to you or tell you something just to make you feel better. They are genuinely there for you. Let them in. Trust me on this. please. I dont want to see my Little LF hurting.

Trust them trust me. ok?

[Nevaeh Flight]

ok.........

[Hawk Flight]

*growls* I jsut gave you a whole emotional speach (something I never do mind you) and Ok.... is all I get *fakes hurt* I'm offended..

Nawh I'm jsut messing with you. dont worry. hey if oyu need talking. you know where to find me

[Nevaeh Flight]

-paws at the feathery hawk- I'm just.. Bleh.

[Hawk Flight]

~ nips at her paws~ its ok

[Nevaeh Flight]

-licks at his beak pawing at him, flicking him with her tail and darts off hiding- RAWF cx

[Hawk Flight]

~ Goes off to find you and picks you up by the scruff of your neck putting you on my back~ lets fly :-P

[Nevaeh Flight]

oh my gosh yessssssss -flails around excitedly-

[Hawk Flight]

~takes off into the sky making loopdy loops and nose dives~

[Nevaeh Flight]

OWO -squeels clinging to the hawk-

[Hawk Flight]

Wanna get off?