In love with this beautiful lie

Day in day out, nothings changed
Putting my mask on, hidding my feelings
I'm hidding, call me coward, I dont care
I know what's best, I know myself
With this mask, people wont see
My depression and my misery

I once had this hope, this wonderful thought
The thought of being happy, not feeling pain
I wished it was true, but even if it ain't
I will lie to myself, I will keep my hopes up
Even though its pointless
I'm in love with this beautiful lie

When I'm alone, I wont carry the mask
While nobodys here, I can let go of it all
Even if i try remember the good things
that people tell me has been in my life
I can nothing see, nothing on my mind
As if I'm blind

They always say whats best for me
But how come everything gets worse
They think they know me, more than myself
They don't listen; they will never listen

I once had this hope, this wonderful thought
The thought of being happy, not feeling pain
I wished it was true, but even if it aint
I will lie to myself, I will keep my hopes up
Even though its pointless
I'm in love with this beautiful lie

Let me live in this beautiful lie
Even if i don't live, let me keep it
I'm not gonna let it go; my only hope
Even if it's crushed, burned, teared apart
I'm still gonna believe
Because I'm in love with this beautiful lie...

Author's Note

I don't remember writing this, and it feels so alien to me...
But yet I still know exactly when I wrote it, and what I wrote about.
Old poem, untouched. Sorry for the grammar.

Reviews

[Walk away slow poet]

Your gammar looks fine to me, I enjoyed this one as much as the last one I read, You are very talented. I really enjoy your style.