I Hide

I hide behind the untrue me

The me that people like

I hide my feelings

And my thoughts

I don’t do it just for others

But I do it for myself

Sometimes I don’t want

To think what I think

Or feel how I feel

 

I hide behind the untrue me

The me that people like

I show the feelings I think I should

And the thoughts I think I should

I don’t do it just for others

I do it for myself

I think the thoughts that I should

And feel the feelings that I should

 

I hide behind the untrue me

The me that people like

I’ll keep feeling what they want me to

And think what they want me to

I’ll do it for others

Not just for me

Someday maybe

I’ll show the true me

 

Author's Note

This was written years ago when I was going through a very hard time with knowing who I was and wasn't. It's nice to look back on older works sometimes to see how far we've come as a person and the remember the things we've over come. This poem speaks to that.

Reviews

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. extremely insightful work ... i so wish i could make someone see what you mean ... we all go through this phase when we become a function of what others expect from us ... i was fortunate in that the phase didn't last very long ... but i went to the other extreme ... i started to appear as if i was malfunctioning ... i didn't know the socially acceptable way of expressing rebellion ... yes, there is a way ... and it has its benefits ... in that people know one is not a thorough conformist without being startled into knowing that ... they are able to take it in ... and that's important ...