The search

A Chapter by Nethi

thoughts..about breaking monotony of life.

THE SEARCH

In this fast moving world sometimes i sit in a corner of my home with wandering thoughts in my head.My line of thinking consists of -What am i doing with my life?Where is my life leading?What should i eat next?maybe a pizza but what about my fat jelly belly? :P Where should i go out? Then all the preceding thoughts of life make a come back.It goes like life thoughts-eating thoughts-fun thoughts and repeat.I know this is kind of insane.

Yeah,I feel like i need to discover myself when i see so many people following their passion,but this is not at all an easy job when you suck at most of the things you do.For example-In singing i fail to match the notes..in painting i sometimes fail to get body proportions right,in dancing when you have an imbalance in your body :P When you fail miserably all the time what should you do?I seriously don't have any idea.

Some days,i just want to quit everything and go on a self adventure ,meet new people,have the time of my life,typical"Yeh jawani hai deewani"movie thing .Is that even possible in real world which somehow is very scary when you see daily news.

"Hard work is the key"they say but what if you are too tired of doing that already and want to break the monotony of life and set your soul free without having to think about what future beholds.This is a very tempting picture.Can we follow this in our life with your family's expectations on your little shoulders.i don't know.

The only thing i am sure about is I want something more,extraordinary.The path is not yet distinct.

In the end i would just like to conclude by writing "Even when you have everything or nothing,one always tends to search for something beyond to walls of this very soul to be set free which can't be defined with mere words".