The Video

Liana's obsession w/ eating has spiraled out of control & she's committed suicide, leaving behind a suicide video, documenting her final moments and revealing all the secrets. No one is safe.

Liana 

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Hey everyone, this is Liana, and if you’re watching this, you’ve decided to press play. This will be the last time you ever see me because I’ve killed myself. Now why would I leave a video behind to tell you this? Well, I think suicide letters are a little played out, don’t you think? You didn’t care when I was starving myself. You never cared to ask if I was okay. I bet you never noticed the thin red scars and the not so thin ones so nicely on display for you to see. You don’t care enough to read a letter, but you can’t resist pressing play. That doesn’t matter now, that you didn’t care. I’ve accepted it, and if you don’t care, why should I? I would love to say that ‘I’m sorry’ but I hate cliches and I don’t lie, so I’m not sorry, and neither are you. So why the video? Well, documenting is all the rage these days, and I wanted to go out with a bang. Sorry, cynical humor. I’m gone, and this video will tell you why. If you’re watching this, look into the mirror next to my closet. Bingo! There’s the reason.

Logan 

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I remember every word on that damn video; it’s like a curse and I play it out in my head a million times a day. It’s like it won’t cut off, or maybe I don’t want it to. Maybe it’s because it was the last time I saw my sister. Maybe I liked seeing her stand up for herself for once, even it was after…ya know, killing herself, but it still counts I guess. Maybe it’s to punish myself, because I did care, God, I wanted to say something. But I didn’t, and that’s worse than not caring. 

“It was the weirdest thing, to see my sister that way. On a screen. Actually looking me in the eyes in what felt like forever.” For once, Dr. Bug Eyes didn’t have anything to say. 

“I liked it… our parents were actually listening. But…it sucked. I think Liana liked it too because for once she had an audience. People were starting to pay attention.” I didn’t even notice that the shrink had pulled out her recorder to capture my statement. Wow, my own recording. Sis would be so proud of me. 

“How did watching the video make you feel Logan? Were you mad at Liana for doing what she did?” she questioned, pausing to analyze my reaction, no doubt frustrated by my face, a blank canvas, perfected. They want answers, but they don’t truly care. They didn’t want answers before, so why should they have the privilege to know now after all this time? I notice that the entire time this lady’s been questioning me she hasn’t once actually said it, that my sister killed herself, that it was suicide. Maybe it’s part of some secret therapist code, and she’s trying not to set me off. Too late for that, I mean hello, that’s why I’m here.

“ For doing what?” I chuckle. She didn’t find it funny, going straight to her yellow pad to note my narcism. I stretched my arms and legs out, the restraints tightening and cutting into my skin. 

“Look…you’re never going to understand. Liana’s gone now, so why does it matter? Why does any of this matter now?” Dr. Mitchell leaned forward, trying and failing to hold focus with my eyes. 

“It matters because it happened Logan. Your sister did a terrible thing, and it’s hurt you deeply. You’re here to get better.” She replies, her voice laced with a false earnestness. Her tell- tale signs of bullshitting are clear as day. She crosses her ankles. Her eyebrows twitch. Her knuckles turn white from clutching her pen so hard, itching to write more about me, but what more there is to say, I don’t know.

“I’m here because my sister killed herself, and I helped her do it. There’s nothing more to say. I can’t make it right, and you definitely can’t make it right.” I lean up, gaining my balance, the restraints shifting. Dr. Mitchell gets up from the paisley couch, her white slip showing under her cheap, navy blue pant suit. 

“Logan, we aren’t finished. Tell me how you helped Liana kill herself.” I can hear it in her voice. It’s laced with curiosity; she’s swimming in it. I don’t even turn around as I answer her, my hand gripping the doorknob. 

“Finish the video, you know you want to. If you really want to find your answers, press play.”

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Author's Note

Hey guys! Sorry it took so long to update! I'm not sure how I feel about this chapter yet so it would mean a lot if you all READ & REVIEWED pretty please!

Reviews

[Rivaxorus]

Sad and interesting, I definitely enjoy reading things like this every now and then. Some writers are afraid to delve into the unknown and the more dark of things.

[Nessie_AJ]

Absolutely! And thank you so much! This is just the rough draft, just a little sneak peek into what I'm really planning.

[jjwilbourne]

This is interesting. I'd have to read more to know how I felt about it. Let me know when the next chapter is up

[Nessie_AJ]

Thank you so much for your review! I will definitely work on it this weekend and will let you know when the full version is up!