the dark place

this was a random write, yet again

There I go.  I have gone away to another place.  There it is, my body limp on the floor.  No breath, no life, no warmth.  Just death.  Why am I here?  Where have I gone?  Will I ever come back?
This has happened before and when I awoke.  I was in the same position.  Time never changed.  It seemed to stand still.  As if it was waiting for me to return from where I was.
I look back at my body, whats that?  There is a pulling on my .  There is nothing there.  Blood is pouring from my heart.  I see it now!!  It slits my wrists.  It looks like young girls are doing this to me.  They all look the same.  My body starts to violently shake.  I fall back down to earth and into my body.  My eyes open and I realize...those girls where me.  I did this to my self.  I try to call for help but blood fills my lungs, I start to panic, I can't move.  I can't breath.  It is getting dark.  I'm dead.
I've gone to hell!  Oh, what doleful whales fill my mind.  Can you hear them God?  Why did I come here?  This pain is too much for me to bare.  Why should anyone go through this?  Why have they and I been sent here?  
What is that?  A giant beast coming towards me yelling!  I can't make out what it is saying.  It is coming closer.  It's words are becoming clear.  It picks me up still yelling "NOT YOUR TIME, NOT YOUR TIME!  YOU MUST GO BACK"  I open my eyes and gasp for air.  The firs thing I look for is blood...There is none.  The only light I see is a flicker coming from a candle.  It has not melted.  Time has not changed.  Seemed like I was there for hours.  But it was only a moment.  
I pray that NEVER happens again.  The pain was much too real.  The feel of the beast picking me up felt real.  Was it?
8/21/04

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[Prose-full]

deep write..love that different level mindedness...