To growing

This is to growing, and trying to forget about past relationships

~ I tell myself Im okay with being lonely

~ A reoccurring thought 

~Building a wall of protection from ever getting hurt

~However, a slow painful remembrance of what happened the last time continuously flooding my mind, reminding every time that im still missing my other half,my one and only...

~The thought of looking into the eyes of another for too long, loosing track of time, and getting lost in their gaze

~To ponder for hours after, overthinking every word, every thought, every action... 

~To know that no matter which path, in light, or in darkness, this person stands in, You'll be there, and vise versa 

~ And in days notice without realization the wall you once built, filled with nervousness, and the thoughts of "will the same thing happen that happened last  time?" will disapear... 

~ And without hesitation a new soul will arise and bloom, a soul with courage and bravery of what the new day brings to them. This new soul will realize that they have found their other half, and the missing piece to what love really is...

Reviews

[Dennis Wolf]

Love is essentially a choice you keep making over and over again, because you know it's right that way... Even if it hurts sometimes.. Even when it's not appreciated, or when others dump their jealousy on you, packed neatly in hatred and even aggression.


Loneliness is also a choice.. And like keeping someone close, it isn't for everyone. I for one find it preferable nowadays.. An iron grip rule over emotion, no attachments, no vulnerability. With nothing to lose, a person is considered dangerous.. Because none of the usual 'handles' work on them.. In other words.. There's no way to manipulate such a person with fears or threatening them with minor inconveniences like getting fired or being ditched for someone 'better'

People are often afraid of my ilk for that reason.. Though with me it's pointless, I've no interest in hurting others, I just like to be free.

Nice write here.

[Masked writer]

Thankyou, i like your mindset

[Dennis Wolf]

Sure thing.

[Davidgeo]

"love is essentially a choice you keep making over and over again..." That's very beautiful.

[Dennis Wolf]

Thanks mate.
🙂

[Davidgeo]

Everyone is alone. Even together, no one can share your consciousness the same way you can with yourself. Pretending otherwise is how people end up "alone together" and why half of all marriages end in divorce. People who don't realize we are all alone together, will never be able to know what other people are going through. Their empathy will be mimicry. Be careful of inauthentic people... they seem more real on purpose. These people are emotional vampires in reality. Run, and never go back. Ever.

[Masked writer]

Hmm.. This is very interesting... Though Emotional vampires come out at night, no matter who's around.. And in horror movies they always look back..A terrible mistake ive tooken way too many times.
Your right, everyone is alone, together, and yet seperated into these "Social groups we call "Friends""

[Relic]

Trying to forget a past relationship osn't always easy, but we can do it if we know it's the right thing to move on.

[Masked writer]

I completely agree with those thoughts, thankyou for your time..

[BraveMoon]

Aw, from the very beginning I could feel that no matter how many time we might tell ourselves something that we think is for our best, if its just truly not true down to the core of our existence then our body and soul just won't receive it. It doesn't know how to lie to itself. But then at the end of the poem is where that thought comes in of "a new soul will realize they have found their other half" which is what the heart truly wants, not to be lonely