Worth

Wish I could just disappear.
Right now, I don't think about my future.
I just want to disappear in this world that's so unfair.

Well, maybe I'm lazy and silly.
I'm not one of the many who can make people smile the whole day.
I'm useless, that's what other people say.

Yes, I have no fancy gift to give to anyone I see.
But I have something in me that they don't see.
Maybe they'll see it when they won't be able to see me.

Author's Note

I was depressed when I wrote this. This was when I felt those people around me didn't see my worth, and won't see it unless I die, because sometimes people only see your worth and talk about how good you are only when you're dead. That's how I felt that time, but instead of ending my life, I just wrote a poem about how I felt that time because I can't dare take my own life.
To those who are in pain either physically or mentally or both, I hope you'll find the courage to continue living even you probably feel like you're dying.

Reviews

[Ern M. Yoshimoto]

the depression is clearly evoked in this melancholy piece. suicide ideation is something i often experience too. and i know that feeling that you will be more valued after you die.
i had very extreme thoughts about un-aliving myself and it took everything, unbelievable will-power to not go through with it. i guess im glad im still alive even though there isnt much for me. but there's spicy food, horror movies, talking to my friends on the phone, hot showers, little things i am grateful for.
i try to take things one day at a time now. slow and steady wins the race, so i try not to put too much stress on myself. there are many things i cant control but i have to just let it go.
well, anyway. im just venting now. good poem. hope you have a good day!

[Nelyn Salvaleon]

Thank you for always inspiring us my friend Ern. May we all live the life full of hope ☺️

[Ballpark Frank]

This is direct and well.written without going too far .......

[Nelyn Salvaleon]

Thank you!

[Cyprian Van Dyke]

I enjoyed this poem because it's real and I read your note. You could be poetry in motion and people still wouldn't get it. I love how positive your note is. Everyone should read this. tyfs

[Nelyn Salvaleon]

Thank you so much for noticing this, Cyprian!🤗