life before this

Living a dream 

My younger self could not believe 

I try not to let her down 

Again 

Doing stupid things

I tried to run away from 

And I ran

Time and distance didn't change a thing 

I'm not wiser 

I'm only 7 hours away 

From everything I love 

But here I'm free 

Across the ocean 

Living a dream

Wish my younger self could hug me

Because I'm tired of talking 

Nobody's listening in the end 

I'm getting along with people 

Yet I can't connect

Maybe I'm the problem? 

Maybe that dream is just an illusion? 

Sometimes it's hard to imagine 

Life before this

Yet I'm grateful for a reminder :

I'm happy by myself 

Enjoying little things 

Meanwhile I wish 

I could wash myself away 

And a void I can't ignore anymore 

I need something

Something that's true

Authenticity, where are you nowadays? 

I can't find you