Million thoughts

Prisoner of my own mind.
Million thoughts day and night
Chase an innocent heart.
I can capture none of then
On piece of paper.
Million reasons to write
But I simply can't.
It's killing me,
The only cure is my pen
But I simply can't.
I can't get it all out,
I can't embrace them.
Million reasons are messing up
With my brain.

It's suffering
But I don't feel pain.
I need silence in my own space
But everything gets louder.
Someone is talking to me
But I dont understand.
I am present,
But I'm not here.
I can feel the air
But I can't breathe.
I am happier than ever
But sadness will hold me forever.
I feel alright
But something is wrong.
Constantly bites my soul.

Similar feeling. I've been there before.
Million thoughts caused by
Same old stuff.
Too scared to admit the truth.
Dealing with same old problem
From my youth.
Some things don't work.
Some things will never change.
Some things were written down as failure
In advance.
Some thing has to be released
Before you lose everything else.

Reviews

[Lisasview]

Hi there,
I was going over all the poems I have posted.
I was checking to make sure I had said thank you to reviews left for me.
Anyway, I came across my
poem Hope and I found your review and wondered if I had read any of yours… not sure if I did or not?
Found this poem if yours….
Two months ago …
Hope you are feeling better as your poem was so sad.
Personally I think you just need not to be so hard on yourself.
Sounds like you really would like to write poetry but have not found a way to release your thoughts onto paper…
But really that is okay.
Just write when you have a strong urge to do so.
Look back at what you have written.. and, read loads of other poets works.. I am sure you will be inspired.
You might like my poem Time or Cry or Miles Apart
Lisa, now in Spain

[Earthrise]

This is so provocative. The piece feels frantic, desperate, confused. If this is describing your own experience, I'm sorry that you have to live through it. Maybe nothing helps, but know that your writing has touched someone.

[Marlena]

I appreciate your comment a lot. You are so sweet, thank you