Do not feel at all

I think I've been trying hard 

To sound good in my words

To sound pleasing to people who actually do not care

I've tried to bring understanding 

Make my mind simpler 

Have a decent way of conversation

Gone about a lot of changes 

Deleted many phrases that I thought will not satisfy

Time and time again

I've tried adjusting myself 

To my surrounding

To my situations

To people, I want to be with and not loose

Time and time again

Changed something in me 

Something that makes me different.

Something that makes me feel free

Something that is important to me

I have a very little experience in life

I've lived only 24 years now.

But I hope it's not wrong to state the things I know.

'Cause let's be honest

Sometimes the smallest of the mind talks wonders.

So

I will talk

Even though in the near future

I will have a complete change of heart.

I will talk now

'Cause I want to be heard.

The way I truly am

I want my people to know me

The me that is complicated, introverted, overrated

The me that is sometimes confused for tiny things

I want them to hear 

How sometimes my mind messes up

How I deeply feel and sometimes do not feel at all.

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

a couple things here with what you wrote. 24 is plenty old enough to have very legitimate things to say.
Your poetry speaks of an older, more mature self.

As for trying to conform our writings to fit an audience? I believe they will like us or not, but we have to write for ourselves....Poetry works that way. Novels are written with the audience constantly in mind...but poetry is a bit more selfish, and it almost has to be to have life.

Yes, let people know you through your poetry....from the heart and gut and they will be interested.
j.

[supernova_thoughts]

Thank you, J.
and yes, I'm learning to slowly let go. Of things that should have gone long back

[Chris Shaw]

It seems here that it is you who thinks you should be making all the adjustments. That doesn't see fair. You should be liked for who you are. You are so young and it sounds as though you need a good boost to your confidence. I was touched by your openness. Good luck and keep writing.

Chris

[supernova_thoughts]

Thank you Chris. Maybe that's how it is. My thoughts. They are always tangled. Lately its too much. Thanks for the review.

[Chris Shaw]

Our own thoughts can certainly tie us up in knots at times. Hope you can untangle yours soon. Take care.

[supernova_thoughts]

Thank you. You too!