Instructed

Instructed, as in some  one told you to do it, so you said f**k it

Not of your' own volition, without them you would say nothing

No thing, nada damn thang, just like a slow jam, bunch played out words

No meaning, I'm a room with four walls, no ceiling

You inside the cube, claiming that out of the box thinking

You wana talk about struggle, how about, blood sweat and hustle

Soreness in the muscle from lugging around a bundle of love

No sleep, no drugs, handling every bit of stress with a shrug

Because, that whats you do, unconditional love, that is the truth

You think I'm lacking, but you wouldn't know love if it was smacking you in the face

But I know nothing, nothing is exactly how I say it is, 

I will love you until the day you live, and the day you die there after

I just won't subject myself to that there, no more fan fare

Cheering each other on as we slip down a black whole

It's like a train that keeps on coming and coming until the tracks show

Love is not, helping each other rot, the now is our present,

You just got selfishness in a box, selfless you are not

Helpless you are not, smell what's in the pot, steaming

Seeing is believing, doing is being, and acting is deceiving

Dreaming is panhandling, so quit the damn rambling

Every thing happens for the camera to catch it candidly

Instruct yourself, sober up, notice that's your own hand f*****g yourself

Acting like it was some one else, dutch rudder, the intention is the same

No more games to be stuck under, I was just a crushed lover, heart broken

Until I realized I was choking from a self inflicted notion

That someone els was controlling, ME

These are MY thoughts, MY choices, MY path, MY voices

MY intention, I own it, MY magical bean stalk, real talk I've grown it

From a seed, buried in weeds, I've been tearing at seams,and it seems

I've navigated past all of the scariest screams, 

Your' turn, time to pass the torch, your' burn

Your' burden, your' jail, your' warden, no warning

The mind has no borders, just a remembrance of the existence

Of a border from a previous instance, distorted by the mind in an instant

Perception is a weapon of inception, our minds are the battle ground

Put your' name on the sign in sheet to check in

It's a recollection, as in connecting again what was already collected

Check it my friend, do you feel the distance in this instance

Silently I took a vow of health, I was sick of the sickness

So me and anyone who lives it, are splitting like twix's