Relapse

             

      Truth be told i never meant to do it again but the urges and the thoughts  also all of this silenced pain the voices 

          and sayings of things people have said too try and hurt me the things that keep replaying on and on inside of my head 

         i am crying out loud and no one can hear a sound the shame and guilt i feel or 

        see the scars from within no one understands the relapse of hurting yourself 

       When you came along way lost the one person i could talk to the most oh how i wish heaven had available open doors ... opening up my old scars recreating deeper 

scars and causing more pain