I'm Used To

Pain is a familiar feeling for me .

Live in emptiness ,

Sink in sadness ,

Befriend loneliness ,

Drink from bitterness ,

 

I’m used to the silent tears dropping on my pillow

And no one ever seems to know

In the middle of the night ,

When everyone is lost in his dreams

And I’m lost in my tears

 

My face is used to the spit over when they are yelling

My ears are used to the dirty words they are saying

My eyes are used to the bloody tears that I'm crying

My mouth is used to be shut from telling

What's in my mind and what I've been hiding

My heart is used to hide what he is feeling

And used to heal the wounds by itself when he's bleeding

Basically , I'm used to nothing and everything

 

After every night there is a morning

But after all my nights there is a night

All my days are night

All the times are dark , are shadowed

Everything is scrambled

But don’t worry , I’m used to that .

Reviews

[Doa'a Tq]

Many people used to that, but actually it's depend on you. I mean each one can make his/her life.
This writing has a lot of emotions, I like it.
However, be thankful for nights turn into mornings, be happy as much as possible 👍

#Doa'a Tq

[Black Jess]

Thank you , yes I will

[Nina H.]

This is very emotional. I like the way you showed how for everyone it may be day and night, but for you it's always night. It amplifies the meaning of being unable to escape the darkness that surrounds you. Very well written. Keep writing and I hope that you will find true happiness and your days will no longer be dark. Stay strong.

[Black Jess]

Thank you , i'm glad you liked it . I'm Strong don't worry about me ;) It's true I write a lot about sadness but I can manage to fight it . And I wish you find happiness too .

[Darian B.]

The tears dry before they even come to our face because we wont show our sadness to them. They dont even deserve to see our tears, do they? We are they who silently listen to other people's problems because they have no idea how deep we are within our own. We speak sadness to those who listen and they assume we are depressed but we know our feelings better than most know their own. As painful as it is though, our greatest strength lies in our own emotions because OUR feelings are powerful. A poet speaks deep into the soul of the reader, forcing them to face the reality of their own feelings. I know your pain, I live your pain but it is worth it. When you meet someone deserving of you, you will be able to give them everything because you have lived everything inside yourself. Hang in there Jess, I'm not sure when either of us will find the light at the end of the tunnel but its light will be blinding and we will know true happiness. I love this poem and I love the way you express your emotions, and I adore the last line. It has so many meanings to it, telling the reader not to worry when clearly he or she should care more than you tell them to. Used to it but not over it. Well done, I love it

[Black Jess]

Thank you Darian , you always cheer me up , you were absolutely right in everything you said .

[William Liston]

I can relate to this all too well ... it's a terrible feeling where everything in life just seems so depressing. This reminded me of a period of time when I was feeling so sad that everything just seemed to ruin my day. When I saw the sun, I felt like crying -- when I watched tv, I felt like crying -- when I talked to someone ... You get the point.

Anyways, I thought this was a very heartfelt poem that many people can relate to. It felt like you poured your heart out in this one (as it is in all your works). Thanks for sharing.

- William Liston

[Black Jess]

Thank you William for your understanding , At least i'm not the only one who feels this way . And yes , me too i used to feel like crying when i watch TV or talk to someone , I thought it's stupid but i'm not the only one x) . Thanks again

[Black Jess]

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