Over You.

: About my ex..

I keep trying to get over him.

I lose myself in it sometimes.

I always think "If I had been prettier.."

or "Thinner"

"Maybe he would still like me."

It really sucks.

I try to get over him again, and again.

Yet then he goes and does that.

He smiles, and has no clue

at how much I want that smile back.

He laughs, and has no clue

at how much I want to hear it in my ear.

At times I wish that I had saved 

ALL the tears I cried for you,

so that I could drown you in them.

I know I could've been a better girlfriend.

I know I could've held on.

But I hated it.

When I was with you..

I felt more lonely than I was before.

You didn't want to hear my problems.

You didn't want me to be "emo".

I felt judged and mistaken.

I felt imperfect, trying to be something I'm not.

I broke up with you the first time,

and you moved on the first day.

You only took me back 

because you felt sorry for me.

I wonder just how many times

I'll have to say goodbye to you

before I FINALLY let you go..

I used to be happy..

But what do you do when,

The one who broke your heart

is the ONLY one who can fix it..?

Author's Note

Yeah..

Reviews

[halflives]

This is an excellent poem, very well written. the message is clear, and I as a reader has to reply to the message: you are just the way you are, and you shouldn't change that just for a boy. A true boyfriend is one that likes you for who you are, and doesn't ask you to change your appearance or your personality to fit his personal needs. Keep smiling, and another one will come along, don't you worry!

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

Excellent, love the flow and the questioning of the heartbreak and love:)

[Coyote Poetry]

A poem with many good questions. Separation and heart brake always leave us with guilt of things we did wrong. Sometime life just don't fit. Two people are separate by life and different thoughts. I like the desire and the emotion in the words. A excellent poem.
Coyote