Confrontaion

Just me playing in my head again...such a fun place

 

I unlocked the other side of my brain today and discovered myself... Huddled in the dark... Naked and cold. It lye upon the grim moist floors, whimpering and whispering a song that I knew... and didn't. I then found myself, baffled, amazed and hungry to hold it in my arms. It. Do i think so lowly of myself that i wish not to own it? Perhaps. It saw me-I saw me the minute the thought was conceived. I heard our heart stop and we went still. "What are you doing here?" we asked mirroring each other. Such an odd thing to be questioning ones self and not aware of the answer. yet...normal? It-no I answered an said: "Is this not where you wish to be? The part of you that hides in the dark and whispers that song when they hurt you? You know...hiding me does not make me go away..." It was then that the veil was removed from my eyes and I saw what 'I' had meant. So many nights of tear stained pillows... Of cotton candy flavored promises- you know, there one minute and gone the next. Easily dissolved... Sweet at a taste, bitter later. I looked at myself and the knowing look in my eyes...hmm...my eyes-was enough to make me want to hold myself. It heard that thought and came to me. I wept... I sobbed... I moaned... Then I felt better under the weight of sweet words and the warm circular movements of my palm on my back. This was seriously unusal...but in that confusing moment surfaced my epiphany like a drowing man who broke the surface of the angry waves and found shore: I can only depend on myself to dry the tears To stop the hurt To comfort me So why did I try to bury that side of me from the light of day? Doesn't matter now...I'm... Happy. Yes. Happy.

Reviews

[Dionysus Cain]

interesting path to find inner happiness. it is a journey, nice movement of your feelings in words.... nice read..

[emma]

I enjoyed this poem. I found that that it was a very poignant example of how we can never truly be happy until we embrace all of who we are, only then can we fight the demons that lay within.

[Tim]

Enjoyed this poem of self examination. It showed how you have dealt with things. Good poem.