A Stupid Story

Just a story, really about nothing.

I am going to write you a story. About what, I do not know. But a story has to be told. This is a story about me and maybe a little about you. This is a story about nothing. I don't know what to say, except I am going crazy. Pure and simple, but I think I like it. How about you? Do you ever feel crazy? How does that really feel? I have quit my job. Why? I have no idea and yet I know exactly why. But I can't tell you. You would think I'm crazy. I loved my job, but I quit. I hated my job and I quit. I never want to go back, and I can't tell anyone the truth. Do I even know the truth? No. But I lie to myself and that's the way it is. It makes me feel.......

 

This is a stupid story. So stupid I can't believe it. It's nothing and everything. But mostly...... Where do I begin? Does it have a beginning? Does it even have a ending? Oh God, I hope it never ends, but I so wish it never began. It's my story after all. All I know is I am not, and neither are you, ever, ever, ever in control of your own story. Just remember that. Never forget that. Got that?

 

Have you ever said F**K YOU? Why does that make me feel better? I'm a lady, (what does that really mean?) I shouldn't say that should I? What do you think? You know, everybody has an opinion. Have you ever asked yourself, whose opinion really matters? Or whose do you want to hear. Think about that one, oh, and f**k you.

 

As I'm sitting here in the middle of the night, I'm curious as to where this story is headed. I wonder if you find it interesting, but I really don't care. All I care about is my story. But I'm wondering why I need you to read it. Do you care? Just wondering. What's your story? I wonder if I would even care. Who in this world has a better story? Who has the best story? Ever think about that? I never did, until just now.

 

What makes a good story? Who wins? Is it the one with the most drama, tears, death, failures? Is it the one of the family with the newly handicapped child, the death of a brother, a son, a new Daddy? What about the girl who lost 100 pounds and finally found her happiness in a man going to prison? I could add more, but I don't want to. Who wins? What's the best story? What's the worst story? What happens if you have a quiet story, a boring story, or worse yet, no story.

 

Well it's getting late and I want to go outside and smoke a cigarette. I wonder if smoking will ever get me a great story? Dying of lung cancer, now that would make a great story. What do you think? How many of our stories are made up of our mistakes? How many stories are accidents? How many stories do you want to hear?

Author's Note

Hope you like it, but remember it's just a story.

Reviews

[cartera]

Stream of consciousness writing has a big following and is considered tres moderne. 'Who wins' is not a phrase that should be used in writing circles in my opinion. I have no time for people who have to be told which winning book to buy or any other thing for that matter. The trick is to keep writing, as you did, and follow it. As to whether I have sworn at anyone: quite a lot actually, but usually I regret it afterward. Everyone's opinion matters, but at the end of the day, for you, after you have weighed up all the other opinions, yours is the only one that counts: right or wrong.
Keep writing and reading.
ATB
Alex.

[char]

Wildly entertaining! The babbles of a writer. Reminds me Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas by Hunter S. Thompson. The character thoughts, that is. ;) I enjoyed this.