Daddy.

Daddy; A Poem For You.

Broken, bleeding, kneeing on the floor, 

Close my eyes. In pain no more. 

Beating, scared, helpless little girl, 

With a mentality that screams "F**k the world."

She's a broken toy in your hands, 

An interruption to your well laid plans, 

‘Cause you didn't want me. Did you Dad?

I made you mad and made Mummy sad. 

I'm so sorry Daddy, I didn't mean to

But I can tell that you've thought this through, 

How much can you hurt me, or make me cry?

How much can I take before I die?        

I'll hold all this s**t, carry my load. 

I'll take my path down life's cold, lonely road.

Daddy, don't hurt me! Daddy, please?!

One blow and these thoughts freeze. 

I'm not scared of you. Not anymore. 

I'm angry now. You kicked down the door,

That held all my emotions back. 

Now I'm primed and ready to attack. 

I've got a blood lust inside me,

And I want to set it all free, 

The hunter becomes the hunted. 

It seems to be, to me, 

How life honestly works for us,

Takes concentration to hold back my lust, 

I want to kill you, rip you apart, 

But, daddy, I wouldn't know where to start. 

The fist that beat me, or the eyes that saw, 

The feet that kicked me or the mouth that swore, 

That you wouldn't do it again, never again, 

But I feel like s**t if I ever complain, 

I made up stories for the bruises, cuts and tears, 

All the while you're replacing my fears, 

Where spiders and blood used to hold ground, 

Is where my Daddy will be found

I'm scared of you, Dad, I have to say, 

I can't see how to love you, no way. 

I hate you with a burning flame, 

I want to cause you a fraction of the pain, 

Inflicted upon me my whole life, 

Pain that attracted me to the knife, 

To push through my heart and let me bleed, 

I think death is the only way I'll be freed,

From the memories of your pain and power, 

All the times I'd run or cower, 

But I have to say my thanks to you, 

You made me stronger and I know what to do, 

I'm not taking revenge in a violent way, 

I'm just escaping, hiding, running away, 

I'll ditch you and our stupid family, 

Take a long look, this is the last time you'll see me, 

I'm moving on with my life, forgetting you forever, 

I'll never hurt anyone like you hurt me.

No, never.