Sick of home

For all those who don't like staying at home.

SICK OF HOME

I can never go home. It’s kind of a relief,

I am sick and tired of my home,

I just want to leave.

I seek reasons to be away from home,

Really don't know why I hate staying indoors,

I am just tired and sick of these emotions,

I feel no one cares for me anymore.

Knowing that I cannot go home,

Is a pleasant excuse,

For I really dont want to be in and feel alone,

I don't want to be an object of ridicule,

Now you can talk about me when I am gone,

So tonight I am staying out at my own.

Don't be concerned for me 'My dear family'

Just allow me to stay in peace for sometime,

Just leave me alone away from the melancholy.

One thing I cannot really understand,

How can a person be homesick,

I guess they have a family who cares,

Such a family who encourages and appreciates,

Who supportes and make them feel loved,

Who helps them in times of distress and don't judge.

Having such a family is like finding a treasure,

I am out in search of such a family,

Because this cruel world has stolen our family's pleasure.

I feel forlorn,

I feel an object of ridicule,

I feel so alone.

Let me be on my own today,

I am just sick and tired of my home.

Reviews

[Alonzo Sherrell]

Najam, this appears to be a sad yet very truthful (w)rite for you. I enjoyed reading every word, and I must say many if not virtually every part of this piece hit home for myself. I hope you do not mind, but I am often whimsical by nature, and believe in laughter as a remedy for almost all. During and when I finished reading this poem the first time, I thought of an analogy that I often say as it pertains to home. Grandparents love to visit and watch their grandchildren, because they can give them back! I love to visit my family in short unequivocal amounts of time. For I am able to dictate my level of involvement within their personal drama, or whatever current issue is making the proverbial sky start to fall, because I can give them back to their world and return to my island of Zojourn (personalized Sojourn). ~Z

[Najam Us Saher]

I agree with your words. I wrote this for a contest.
I can never go home. It’s kind of a relief was the prompt line given so I wrote this poem according to the line and added some more emotion to it.
Thank you for reading I appreciate it. :)

[Manu]

You are great at pouring down the emotions into your Poetry, Saher. Your poems make us to ponder and put us into that person's shoe. I love how you always try to write on different things.
This one is a heart breaking write. Sad piece but beautifully written. Good

[Najam Us Saher]

I have no words to thank you. No word I find so accurate to express my gratitude. I am so happy that you like and read what I write. Thank you from the depth of my heart. ☺

[Valentine]

Funny, after I left home I often hungered for it. Just remember how you are feeling and do 100 percent better as a parent when you have a family of your own. Valentine

[Najam Us Saher]

Yes I will take good care of my children and will not make them feel such. Thank you :)

[D Connolly]

When I was younger, my parents worked very hard and weren't around a lot because they were working to provide for me. I still felt loved, then they suffered a divorce. My mother had a nervous breakdown, and spent all of her time in bed in the dark room with the door closed. I was ignored for several years and felt very unloved. My dad retired from his work, and remarried to a woman who did not want me as a child (she wanted her own new child) and didn't like me in her house. I felt very unloved, and I hated being at both homes, and I hated being in my own skin because I felt like my family hated me. I don't have brothers and sisters. I was sent to live with other family, and I was a burden, so they didn't want me there either. I spent several years being sad about my family, and then several years searching for a new family of friends and substitute parents.
Now that I am older, I agree with Shabeeh; the misunderstanding should be removed with communication. Sometimes, our parents are not always there to be strong for us, because they are people too, and they have things that take their attention and consume their feelings the same as us, their children. Perhaps you are in this place in life right now to strengthen the bond between your family to BE THERE FOR THEM while they go through their own personal ordeals. Speak to them, offer to help them with their problems, clean the house, take care of your responsibilities so they don't feel burdened to worry about you. Time to think of others, my love.

[Najam Us Saher]

I am so deeply moved to hear about your family. I agree with your words I feel very grateful for your kindest concern I thank you from bottom of my heart. ☺

[Shabeeh Haider]

This is very sad. Judging by these thoughts I get the feeling that you are very young.
No child should feel this way. A home is a place of security and contentment. It is a place where ones happiness should be.
You need to talk to your parents. The misunderstanding should be removed.
All parents love their children but few understand them. Discussing ones fears and problems is the best way to overcome them.

[Najam Us Saher]

Yes I agree with your words but sometimes I feel so. Actually I wrote this for a contest the first line was the prompt given so I added more of the emotions to match the prompt and provide meaning. Thank you for reading my work :)