Infliction

You always wear
your evening gown.
It's black,
to make you look even skinnier.
In silent perfection
you make your way
across every surface,
high heels or not.
I am envious,
you're like the twin sister
who does everything better
than I could ever do.
I look my worst in sunlight,
you always look your best.
And in the darkness
I know you do all the things
I only dream of doing
in the deepest crevices
of my convoluted little mind.
We are intertwined,
we share each other's feet.
We are opposites
and I can't help but feel
I got the short end of
this tiny stick
or twig.
You will always be there
to mock me
in that beautiful
evening gown.
The only way to stop feeding you
with pride
is to stop feeding
myself.
And then, one day,
we'll finally dance together
as the shadows we've become.