And That's Okay

An unrequited love isn't that bad

I’ve loved you now for so long,

Since we first became friends.

You don’t know, but that’s okay,

I’d tell you if you weren’t too nice for your own good.

You’ve dated and had your heart broken

And I’ve been there for you all the way,

From the early sign of subtle lust

To the tears of agony you would shed.

I’ve been your ear and shoulder;

Your hand to squeeze when in pain.

You could never love me, I know.

You said you could never love women

Like I can,

And things like that won’t change.

If I ever told you and asked you to be mine

You’d say yes

And I’d be hurt

Because I want your heart, not your body.

I’ve often read stories with people like me:

Their pains of want ring in my ears.

But they are just stories since I don’t cry out,

Just a dull throbbing that I have forgotten

Until the days you fall again,

And a tiny pang reminds me it’s there.

You aren’t hurting me

Like you would convince yourself IF.

Giving me kisses won’t make me happy IF.

I won’t stop being your friend IF.

Nothing would change IF.

IF… I told you.

So don’t worry your pretty head

If my eyes sometimes glaze over.

Just remember all I need is your love,

The love of a friend rather than none at all.

Author's Note

I am going to be completely truthful here. I really like the subject matter, but I did not write the poem the way it should be. It's a bad job, I know, and I'm thinking of rewriting it. I just needed to get it out to get those creative juices flowing.