And There's This Burning

I've never been so alone, and I've never been so alive.

Who knew
The day you chased me
Trying to touch me with your warts
Just to tease me like little boys do to little girls
That in fifteen years
You'd be gone forever

Who knew
The day you broke her heart
I was filled with so much unspoken rage
Not knowing how I was ever going to forgive you
That in two years
You'd be gone forever

Who knew
The day we sat in math
Having too much fun to pay attention
Spending the time laughing at the simplest things
That in some months
You'd be gone forever

Who knew
The day I turned twenty
Enduring my own emotional pain
Selfishly thinking only about my problems
That in two days
You'd be gone forever

Who knew
The day I had to work
Complaining about the early hours
With no thoughts other than I can't wait to leave
That in two hours
You'd be gone forever

Who knew
The day you got up for school
Like any responsible young person
Unlike me so caught up in all my petty issues
That in mere minutes
You'd be gone forever

Author's Note

November 15th, 2010 Eric W. Wiggins passed away early in the morning on his way to school when his motorcycle collided into the back of a stopped van. Eric was one of my closest friends I'd had since kindergarten. I got my wrist tattoo for him with Alis Grave Nil underneath which is Latin for "Nothing is heavy to those with wings." I hope you're shredding hard up there buddy, ride in peace.

Reviews

[i.am.the.sun.]

well i'm actually tearing up.
i've never stopped wondering which one of me and/or my closest friends will be the first to go... so far i/we've been lucky that way, but this gave me a chilling idea of what it would be like, and i don't ever want to face the music on that one...
i don't want to be reminded of my own mortality or of how many things i said that i shouldn't have, now many things i'll never be able to take back and the things i'll never be able to give and say... i don't want to grow up, but i don't want anyone i know to not have enough time to grow up when they're ready.
wow.