Me

This title sums up the story of me (until about a year ago.)

How do I say
what's here in my heart
when I'm so sure that no one
will hear me?

How can I be sure that
what I'm feeling is real
when so many times my heart
has deceived me?

What path do I follow,
do I go left or turn right,
and how do I release from the darkness
what have been shunned from the light?

Who will believe me,
when at times I have doubt,
when I'm comfortable not having
what I've lived so long without?

 

Pain is the ingredient
that salts my tears,
and bittersweet are the memories
that I've carried for years.

They've taken root in my heart
and choked out all emotions,
chasing away the chance of having
love and devotion.

So I sit here alone,
I stand her forgotten;
my stomach, my heart
are both hollow
and rotten.

How do I face what I fear most in my life,
and that is my own reflection,
my pain and my strife,
and the fear of a past that cuts
like a knife?

So I'll be alone in the crowd,
living out loud but dying inside,
drowning in my own silence
with no place to hide.
No one will hear me,
and no one will see,
the heartache and heartbreak
of just being...

Me

By: Nathaniel A. Booker, Sr.
'Genius under Construction'

© Nathaniel Booker

Reviews

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This is very sad but touching. It shows us that the problems we think we have are a mere seasonal cold compared to others. Appreciate life and realize that we (speaking of myself) am blessed beyond measure compared to others. Nate you will truly touch so many souls with your story and your writing. It is meaningful and that is what makes for a EXCELLENT writer. You show people that if they are abused or have experienced severe hardship, they can overcome it. You have and will humble so many people with your story. Keep exercising your gift and spreading this positive message!

[LJW]

Very nicely written. I had a poem of mine included on a calendar whose proceeds went to fight child abuse...

The last stanza and last word say it all: What becomes of a person's psyche when the abused child grows up?

[Stacey Watts]

Excellent piece. Very well done. I can feel the emotion as always in this piece.

[~Shadow Kissed~]

I love this well written and truly amazing :)