Chapter 1; Prologue:
It was dizzy
You couldn't see
silhouettes
Only dark grey shadows
And light that was too
far to lighten any thing
You felt a piercing pressure on
your body
You thought it should feel annoying
But instead
it felt comfortable
It was a contrast on its own
But
it shouldn't bother you any further
For you had to figure out
this place
The whole aura was a whole contrast
Everything
was pitch black
Yet you saw light
You only saw warm
colours
Yet you felt cold
And the thing that suddenly hit
your mind and let you start to freak out was
...
That
she could see you
She had
complete control over where you were
You hadn't noticed her
Now
she stands right next to you with a piercing glance
Your
eyes start to lose their control
Fall loose
Your sight
switches to black and back
The effect decreases but a nerve
scratching grey layer surrounds you
You're hold at it
She
is not letting you go
Not letting you leave without pain
You
will slowly pale
The comfortable feeling now starts to
focus
It all bundles to one point
Your brains' inside
You
won't be able to reach it
You won't be able to stop it
from crushing your soul, your spirit, your mind.
Everything will
lose its control and will be lost.
You were to naive.
You
were too inquisitive to see what it will cost you.
Chapter 1; Part 1:
I had been too lucky
Far too lucky
not being a nuisance for her
It
seems like she still is experiencing this place
She seems
calm
I have no clue about where she could be from
She
wears clothes but I am not sure if she took them
She doesn't
look like she would care about those things
Those must be
trivial
I have
been following her for 3 days
She surely has noticed me from
the beginning
But for any unknown reason she didn't think of me
as fiend
So she did not mind me
A thing I have
noticed
She does never take off this mask
I have not seen
her face in any way
But there must be something she doesn't want
the world to know about
Chapter 1; Part 2:
We have been at this place for 6 days
and nights
She hasn't done anything but looking at the nature
She seems to enjoy this place
I could have moved
on, sure
But she behaves too interesting to leave her
Also,
it seems like I am the only one she accepts around her so I feel kind
of special
After I spent 3 sun cycles in her area I was
assured that she wouldn't go away
So I could move a bit further
away from her and get something to eat
I was starving
…
I can't get behind her mind
It
is so focused reacting to everything in its surroundings
Yet her
nature is so kittenish
Colours amuse her
She truly
seems to be in love with them
When she found those new clothes,
she put them on with no hesitation not caring who might be
watching
I turned my sight
In this harsh lands I am
this gentle, it is wonderable
Maybe I am just respecting her
that much
She could instantly erase me I am sure of
it
That might be a reason
Maybe I am not as gentle as I
thought, I went for a glance, she all of a sudden turned her head
towards me
These eyes were piercing me
I ducked
…
Her mind is set
Yet it is
playful
Her character combines wild free behaviour
Yet she
can bring everyone behind the veil
…
One thing I have noticed
From
time to time she stops, stands still, stares holes
Her head goes
down and she just remains silent for several heartbeats
Well
she never does any sounds, but I am sure you get my point
Her
facettes are full of contrasts
Her body is a contrast, She is
a-...
I need some sleep.
Chapter 1; Part 3:
When I opened my eyes
The situation
that I had seen so many times had occurred
She stood near the
sea watching the ocean I presume
I finally wanted to know
as which she accepted me
I got up and slowly started approaching
her
She didn't move one bit
Suddenly I felt a hard pressure on my
body
It was fierce
I fell
As I crawled
backwards
The pain let go of me
I tried crawling near her
again
I felt the heat again and stopped
It slowly
cooled down
Daring I moved on
After a few harsh
minutes I stopped feeling it and could stand up carefully again
She
still stood in the same pose
If she hadn't breathed one could
assume that she's a statue
I now was right next to her
Wanting
to say a word but I couldn't
I focused my mind and finally did
it
»Hello?«
I said
There was no answer
I
waited
The weather was calm and silent
As she was
Then
I heard it
In my head I heard her voice
»W-what are
feelings?«
I was speechless!
I wasn't able to move
my lips
I was even to stunned
...
She
slumped and her body kneeled almost without any might on the
ground
It looked like she felt evaporated and I moved back
She
started to take off most of her clothes
She asked me a
second word
»What is this place that frees my mind but takes
control of it?«
Again I couldn't answer
»These colourful clothes make me feel
too happy, yet they cramp me.«
She hadn't taken a single look
at me
She didn't need to she knew how I looked like
»In
this place-«
I said
»You will never have to control your
thoughts nor your mind«
»But why?«
Her voice
asked inside my head
»Isn't that what holds this rubble that is
my body?«
»Your body, is never a rubble.«
I
said
»But it's pale, let it get more freedom to decide what it
needs. Let it tell you that. Then you will know what it means to not
always have to control it.«
...
"This
sounds not right. But somehow I accepted you around me, I will try
it"
...
Her hand slowly moved up to her face
Her
fingers carefully embrace what is holding her mask
The metal
rattled quietly as it fell to the ground
She turned her head around to me
Her
lips started moving
She asked
»Will I now be
free?«
Chapter 1; Part 4:
I
could see her face
She gave me the chance to see what she never
showed
Silently I looked at what she hid
At first it
looked like a burning mark
But I noticed
There were little
stars in it
Tiny stars were glittering on her lips and
cheeks
»Why would you try to hide this?«
I asked
»It
is a void«
She answered
»Behind those stars there's no
thing«
»A void within your face?«
I
asked
»Where did it come
from?«
»It is my mind.«
She answered
»This
why I needed to control it.«
»This is why I couldn't let
go.«
She continued
»It would leave me dead behind.«
I
stared at the stars
Some glowing brighter then less bright
again
They were dancing
...
Some kept
their light
Others lost it
And a whole galaxy was moving on
the cheeks of a girl
...
»Will you help me letting the control
go without losing my mind?«
She asked
»I don't want to
leave this colourful place.«
»I will stay at your
side«
I answered
»Until you learned it and longer
then.«
»This may be why I accepted you«
She
said
»You were destined to help me free my mind.«
...
After
saying those words she turned and started walking away carefully
Her
feet touched the water surface as she went in
...
She
laid herself on the back and let go
Chapter 1; Part 5 �" Finale:
»You
will need to differentiate this physical world from your soul.«
I
said
»Then you will be able to set your mind free without it
vanishing.«
»Alright. Understood. Tell me how.«
She
answered
»I will listen carefully«
»Concentrating
is most effective when all other senses get a break.«
I
continued
»So let us go somewhere where it's dark and
quiet«
...
»Now,
well your eyes light it up, close them.«
I told her
»And
now, just try to erase all thoughts that could distract your
concentration and just leave your mind here.«
She did as
I told her and closed her eyes
I silently went out of the
shadows and a few feet away from her so I wouldn't distract her
I
waited for her to say a word but it was silent
I sat down
and looked to the ocean
Waiting many more blinks
waiting ..
some more...
I jumped up to my feet as I heard it yelling
»I think I got it!«
Back from where I left her
»I
am sorry«
She said
»Was I too loud?«
»No,
everything is fine«
I answered
»Letting go excess energy
can help well after meditation.«
...
»Let me
just show you!«
She said
»And tell me what you
see!«
»What I s-...?«
Was what I wanted to ask as
I saw how the stars on her face started crowding together and the
whole galaxy rose its density
Everything started moving faster
and it felt like her void was now right inside her when it before
slightly exceeded her face like if it was trying to escape
All
of a sudden her eyes sprang widely open
»Did you see what I
felt?«
She asked
»Yes I did«
I answered
»This
can only be a first sign of division«
»Hold- Ho- hold
on!«
She suddenly screamed!
Her eyes opened up even
wider!
Her eyes started to darken
Her stars moved
away from another
And her galaxy now exceeded her face again
and didn't stop!
»Your uninfluencable side mind-side
seems trying to get control back!«
I tried to say it with a
calm voice but it didn't quite work
»Try to close your eyes
again and tell your mind that you don't want this control!«
She
kneeled down
Her eyelids were flickering under the pressure
She
finally got to close her eyes yet the void grew and her head didn't
stop shaking
I wanted- I wanted to lend her my strength
and surround her body
But this would just have been an act of
controlling and could even have her fiend be strengthened
So I
could just kneel down as well and try to give her my spiritual
strength against her foe that was her own mind
...
She
fell. Fell onto the ground and stopped shaking
...
---
...
Her
eyes opened
They were glowing again, not brightly but they were
glowing
She moved her lips but couldn't say a word
»It
is all good.«
I told her
»Your mind however will try to
get its control back again and again for a decent amount of
time«
»But I defeated it this time?«
She asked
»So
I will overcome it those next times as well?«
»Indeed.
Your mind is strong.«
I said
»It will defeat your mind.«
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