Addicted To The Pain It Causes

I had this Idea as I walked down the green belt so I decided to write it down

I closed my eyes and touched the crimson rose's gentle petals.The hushed wind blew threw my straight layered hair. I seemed to always find myself traveling back to this dense forest when trying to escape,lifes agonishing pain. I fell to my knees and silently cried and faced the cold unforgiving earth in sorrow.

I thought to myself. How could they take her from me. She is all I had left. Now I have nothing.

I should have watched her more carefully perhaps then I would still have her right next to me.

I stood up and stared at the starless sky. It looked as if all the light was drained from it. In some way I felt like the sky felt my pain. For all the light was disappeared from it's world as well.

The thoughts of suicide trickled into my mind once more. The depression clouded my vision. Without her. I could not process things as clearly or as rationally.