Lately

A song I wrote... when I found out a friend wouldn't be coming home for Christmas

Lately I've been thinking
Of running far away from this town
Far from the memories
Far from these sounds

Lately I've been living
In a world of pandemonium
So full of chaos
Yet, the feelings just right

When am I gonna get back on track
And get where I need to be?
When are these cars
Gonna stop passing me by
When will I feel like I have control
Take these reigns and steer now
Into a better tomorrow

I need you,
I need you to grab hold of me tonight
Because baby
I'm just not feeling this is right
I'm feeling lost and insecure
And boy, do I feel sick to my stomach

I hear you
I hear you calling out my name
But your face is no where in sight
Oh, no, this just isn't right
Who is going to save me from this heartache now?

When am I gonna get back on track
And get where I need to be?
When are these cars
Gonna stop passing me by
When will I feel like I have control
Take these reigns and steer now
Into a better tomorrow

When will this road lead me to
Exactly where I need to be
Why does it feel like
I can't grasp onto anything real
Stop playing with my heart, now.
Just stop tearing me apart, now
Make this real
C'mon, just make this real for me.