Overdose

Overdose

I was empty
Life was dull
Full of nothing but the same things
I've always known
I needed a thrill
Life changing
The ocean of the unknown
Has me so tempted to dive in
I look beneath me
I see your shadows
I stand on my weary feet
And begin to chase you

Finally,We are face to face
Your existence is far from the common spirits I'm used to dealing with
Your body is decorated with pictures,
Quotes that make me ponder
I inch closer, reaching out to you
I trace the ink embedded in your skin
"survivor"
I fix my eyes on this word
I wonder what stories lie behind it
You invite me to your world with a smile
Exposing me to the beautiful side of you

Captivated...
By your smile, your scent-
Your stories, your life
Your past
As you weep angrily
I'm dying to just hear you laugh
But I'm more intrigued by the chains on your soul
The walls built around your heart
Is there a key? I want to see more
You're beautifully made but I'm eager to discover the untouched depth
The depth of your darkness
The depth of your pain
This happening so fast

I light you like a cigarette
With my burning fire within
I tempt your temptations
I challenge your weaknesses
Break for me, let me inhale your demons
Battling-
Frontline
There's something about you
Like a drug
I'm addicted

We're buying time
Creeping in the night
Burning out of energy
Stealing each others heart
Going up in smoke
Our worlds are a haze
The tension is intense
Fighting World War 3
This hurts
You're no good for me
Yet I can't get enough of the chaos it takes to get to you
I willingly make sacrifices to be with you, to have you, to be under the influence of you-

I'm exposing all I am
Still fighting to understand you
You're still impacting me
I'm careless about all else
But you
Up in smoke we go
As we rest our weary bodies on the clouds
You're calling me to take more
My heart aches
I don't need you
You're killing me
I can't leave you
I'm on top of you
I'm relapsing
No, I don't need you
I need to live but I want to live with you
You're convincing
You're inviting
I'm high from your love
More, I need more
You're no good for me
I obsessively sought for you

My heart aches more
You're confusing me
I can't think
I can't sleep
My heart is racing now
I've inhaled you're toxins
Demons
I'm fighting them
I keep coming back
They can't resuscitate me
You're becoming a vague blur
Heart is breaking
I can't reach you
You're leaving me all alone
Familiar voices scream for me
I'm still looking for only you
Where am I?
I've hit the ground
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6
Hold her nose
Inhale life
Faster-
My chest is rising every millisecond
I'm cold
You were my fix
You were my drug
I've died from your love

I overdosed on you......


~M.B.