Alive

Alcohol numbs the pain

and I have so many wounds

First I abandoned the only person who will love me

and then I got left by the only person I could love

It's meant to be ironic and I'm sure God is laughing because he already knows my ending

That this is all a big comedy show with ups and downs

but right now I'm at an all time low

but at the same time I've never been so high

The music, the noises, the tingles running through my finger tips

It's disorienting, intoxicating

and entirely addicting because for a brief moment I forget

all the pressures, the stress, the pain

All gone

not forgotten, but no longer aching

I don't matter

and in that moment of non existance

I am truly alive.

Author's Note

haven't written in a while so sorry if it sucks lol