Forgive Me For This Insanity

Electric currents shock my system

As I try to comprehend these feelings

I don't like to let myself feel things

they call it fear of commitment

It's not about that as much

as It's about self-preservation

sometimes I feel suffocated 

because I feel so much

and these busted lungs 

can't handle everything at once

so I drown my blood with drugs

some that allow my emotions to flow

others that stop my mind from spinning

either way It's hard to stay sober

for too long in this crazy life

I can handle the stress

I can handle the pain

But when it comes to love and like

a panic breeds in my soul

because I'm afraid to show myself to these women,

these demons owned me for so long

I'm covered in scars

some you can see

some you can't

either way they show themselves someway

they're damaging despite their invisible

and owning that fact is tough

taking responsibility is even harsher

but if I want something honest and genuine

that's exactly what I have to be.

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[Chris]

We don't "have" cats - they tend to have and sometimes even tolerate ...us. Chuckling here.

Welcome to our world. Catch a breath as you can - life isn't fair.