Fake HappyA Poem by Morgan|Intelligent|witty|geminiThere is emptiness where my heart should be Pain, sadness and anger These three things make up the person I call me. There is a cloud over my head, and a faceless demon lurking around my bed The smile is fading and the weight of disappointment and failure is draining my soul I feel like I'm suffocating And the bitter taste of rejection after rejection is taking it's toll All I want is to be happy but instead find myself feeling crappy. How is it that I can laugh and still feel nothing? How is it that I blast my music and binge watch movies just to feel something? Why do I seek comfort and yet push it away at the same time? Why do I cry and cry and still say I'm fine? It's so easy to post lie after lie on social media to the point people believe it Upload a picture of the biggest smile possible but behind it all I am wounded I have been hit By my mistakes, my regrets, my unreachable desires I never stop to think about the things I have acquired no I am masking it all with this façade that everything is okay That my life is alright and that I know the way But in reality I'm lost and trying to keep my head above water before I start to drown I'm told I always have my head in the clouds and you know what? That's right Because I want to keep my hope and dreams alive As I fight against my doubts and inner demons at night. So to you, and to everyone else I will display a success story and act the part even if behind it all I am going insane And my heart is breaking slowly, slowly, with all of this pain.
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Added on September 13, 2019 Last Updated on June 15, 2023 Tags: Mental Health, BPD, poem, poems, monolouges, monolouge, inner monolouge, mental illness, feelings, emotions, life, free verse poem, sad, sadness, empty, emptiness AuthorMorgan|Intelligent|witty|geminiMEAboutMy names Morgan, I'm 26 years old. I have a pretty cool cat and a witty personality. I tend to have a lot of emotions and feelings that I don't always understand or that I understand all to well, eith.. more..Writing
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