I wanted you.

Just a poem I wrote for/about my ex girlfriend. We recently broke up and this is what I left on the bed for her the day I left.

I wanted you...

I wanted you to see my hurt..

I wanted you to see through my useless words

I wanted you to see my love..

I wanted you to see what I had to offer...

I wanted you to see that I wasn't

 going to just leave you..like the others..

I wanted you to see what your

 spell had done to me..

I wanted you to see that I could never just "up and leave"..

I wanted you.

I wanted you to know that no matter what was said

I would never take anything to heart..

never mind, I did.

I took a lot to heart, but it was only because

I thought every word you said was pure gold...

not filled with venom.

I thought that maybe, just...maybe

you'd mean it.

I wanted you to know that I loved you with everything

that I could give from my dainty heart...

my heart is shattered

I'm broken...

torn in two..

I thought you could handle me..

I thought you could put the pieces back together

that's why I wanted you to...

I thought that maybe you'd see past my tiny smile...and just hug me and tell me you loved me...

But you never did.

maybe..I was just to good at it..

I wanted you to see that I wasn't giving up

I wanted you to see that I wasn't giving up on us..

on you..

or on myself..I couldn't..

I wanted you.

I wanted you to know me like the back of your hand.

I wanted you to be able to spit facts about me on the spot.

I wanted you to say the things you felt scared to say...

I wanted you to know me

for me...

I wanted you to be able to understand

my slight shrugs and non-tight hugs..

I wanted you to see that I wasn't happy with myself.

I wanted you to see that i've been waiting hand and foot for your move.

I wanted you to take a walk in my shoes...

I wanted you to love me the way I loved you..

oh my god.. I just wanted you..

even after everything that happened..

I wanted you.