Has my mental illness consumed me?

When you feel like you're mental illness has finally won, they own you and control you, keep fighting.

I don't understand my mind half the time;

the other half I understand to well.

what is this?

I was happy

and now I'm sad

Give me a few minutes

and i'll be angry

The mood swings

are much to extreme

everything

is too extreme

The Joy

The Anger

The Emptiness

The Fear

Don't leave me

please don't leave me

I can't live without you

NO- please

No!

please..no

How could you?

I hate you

don't ever come near me again

No I don't

I don't hate you

I hate myself

But i'm a coward

I'm covered in scars

but I can't make it final

I've never been good with commitment 

It's a pitty

because all I really wish is that

I wish I could kill that part of me