If you could feel it, would you?

How my feelings are more intense and stronger than others. (ADHD)

I wish you could feel my highs and lows.

then only could you understand.

My thoughts and feelings as so extreme

you would need to feel them to comprehend.

my happy isn't happy it's both pride and joy as the slightest hype

my joy isn't joy its illuminating with delight

my curiosity isn't curiosity its complete wonder for

everything in this world

I wish you could feel it I truly really do

for love for me is like Christmas morning every single moment

the kiss we shared is monumental

I wish you could feel the child kindness I feel for small things

like holding a kitten

But my low's..well their low's, their far from my friend

they would sneak up behind me and hang me with

a noose if they could

my pain isn't pain its complete and utter sorrow

my thoughts become so irrational I don't want to wake up tomorrow

my fights aren't just fights I treat them like

i'm trying to win a f*****g war

i'll say anything to hurt you in anger just so I don't explode

the worst is the sadness

i'm never whole

never complete

my sadness is like grieving an entire family's loss

then having to walk around like nothing's wrong

I wish you could feel all of this

just for one day, hell just for one hour

I really do

just so you could understand why I do what I do

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

If this isn't bipolar disorder then nothing is. I hope you are taking medicine.

[Morgan|Intelligent|witty|gemini]

I've actually been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder(BPD), anxiety, depression and ptsd. Recently began treatment.

[Morgan|Intelligent|witty|gemini]

But then again I've been misdiagnosed more than once, in all honesty I just want to know what's wrong with me.

[John the Baptist]

Misdiagnosis is not uncommon. On the other hand, sometimes illnesses show one set of symptoms, while at other times, other symptoms predominate. This is common with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder.

[Morgan|Intelligent|witty|gemini]

Yeah diagnosing a mental illness is much more complex when so many have some of the same symptoms.