Vermin

Having a mental illness such as BPD can make you a complete and utter monster. suddenly nothing else matters but hurting the person you love because of imagined and wrongly perceived situations.

There are rats in my walls, clawing, screeching,

ravenous and defiling.

Just like I have defiled you, ruined you, ravaged you,

screamed at you and took swings at your arms during a manic blackout.

You ducked but the damaged was done.

I never thought I would be the pest of your life, sending chills down your spine

and testing you to your wits end.

I always believed my presence would be warranted.

I didn't want to be a rat in your walls.