A Lost Love

True love is a mystery. But like all good things, it comes to a tragic end.

"The day I met you" he started. "Was the day I finally understood what it meant to love."

I watched him with concerned eyes, he looked so fragile in his exhausted, weak, depressed state.

"You showed me what it meant to love again" he continued, choosing his words carefully. "I had felt so numb until you came into my life. I had no will or no hope to live. Everything seemed so pointless. Life itself just seemed so futile."

I could see the cracks in Darren's facade of happiness begin to form as the barrier against emotion, built up from yers of struggle and abuse, began to crash down around him. Darren's eyes glazed over, took on a glass like appearance as he tried his best to stop the tears that were sure to come.

"The moment I looked into your eyes I knew things would improve for me. They were so dark, black almost. But still they twinkled like the stars in the night sky. It was at that moment that I realised that even in complete darkness, beauty can be found."

The first tear escaped his eye. I watched it roll down his cheek, leaving a wet track on his otherwise snow white face.

"You saved my life" he whispered, "For that, I can never thank you enough."

Where one tear comes from, many more are to follow. And as if to prove my point, a flood of tears escaped Darren as he finished the sentence. I watched unmoving as Darren's body was racked with sobs. I knew what he was like, he didn't want anyone's comfort he just wanted to have his say. As I watched Darren shiver, unable to tell if it was from crying or from the cold air of the frosty winter's morning, he slowed down his grief stricken breathing enough to continue on with his speech.

"Those seven years were the happiest years of my life. You showed me emotions I thought I would never experience."

I watched him smile as he remembered some of the great times we shared together.

"I remember in the darker parts of my life I never planned on living past twenty seven. But during my years spent with you I actually allowed myself to think fo a life growing old. The images of growing old, having a family, getting married, all became a dream. Something I wanted not just another meaningless routine affair that everyone experienced. "

Darren fell silent. I watched as his eyes appeared to be focused on one spot, but I knew that he was too absorbed in his own thoughts to notice his surroundings.

"I used to think that the whole idea of a soulmate was pure crap. Just another reason to mock the lonely outcasts of the world. I never thought it was real. I guessed you made me question a lot of what I believed about this world." Darren chuckled.

"But I know that I've lost you now. I know that I will never have you back. If I'm honest, the only thing keeping me going is the hope of seeing you again some day soon."

Hearing him say all this broke my heart. I wanted to be with him so much, more than anything, but I would not be able to no matter how much I wanted it.

"If only I could hold you in my arms on elast time. Relive another one of them perfect nights. You know the ones, the nights spent cuddled close under the blankets with my arms wrapped around you. Holding you close to me as if I could lose you at any moment. With your hands on my chest and your head resting between my neck and shoulder. Just laying there, listening to the soft beating of your heart, feeling the warmth and comfort of your touch."

The tears had begun to fall from Darren's eyes again. "That was my favourite place in the world to be. I wanted moments like that to last forever. " It all got too much for Darren and he collapsed to his knees. "We'll be together again someday." he promised.

"I will try to stay strong for you," he swore. "I won't let all your help and support be in vain."  

"Thank you." I whispered, barely audible as I tried to choke back tears.

"I love you with all my heart." said Darren softly. "And I always will. It's an ugly world but you're beautiful to me. I never got to say my last goodbye so I'll do it now." He paused, taking a deep breath.

"Goodbye my love. I can never thank you enough for everything you've done for me. And I'll make sure to keep my distance, say I love you when you're not listening. I will always love you."

"I love you too, so so much." I replied, trying in vain to reach his hand. Aware that he wouldn't be able to hear me. I watched broken hearted as Darren stood up and placed the bouquet of flowers on my hours old grave.p 

Too numb to cry I watched him leave,

Forever.

Author's Note

This my first ever attempt at any sort of a love related story so comments and reviews are greatly appreciated as I wish to improve my skills at this genre.

Reviews

[relinashinee]

wow, so the girl died??? wow, this was very emotional, especially from a guys POV...
I've got to give it to you, I love it. So sad yet, in a way it was like it made feel what the guy felt. ACK! Even this story has made me muddle up, cool :)

[Rachelle]

Yep she did! Awh thank you! Thought a guy's POV might be different as it's usually associated with girls:) Ahahaha I'm so glad you like it and I consider the fact you're muddled to be an achievement:')

[relinashinee]

ahahahaha, don't worry I will come to my senses, in a mo or two, ahahahaha :)
Keep writing, I really like your writings :)

[Rachelle]

I hope so :') Thank you very much and that is always a joy to hear, will do:)

[INeedNerve]

Wow Rachelle, way to make my cry. Brilliant.

[Rachelle]

Oh no I'm sorry!:') Thank you!