Ghost

A Poem by Haru

The poem is not what it seems. You can understand it in a lot of ways. This poem is based on my story, mental health, past

Do you know about the voices?
They’re so sweet, they’re so sweet!
Like a ghost flying around.
Always round and round and round…

Have you heard? Have you heard!
He caught the ghost, he did!
Did you hear about the news,
Of a little, little ghost.

That boy at school, he caught it!
Is it nice? Is it friendly?
Boy just said no,
‘He’s not nice and he’s not friendly…’

That’s a lie! That’s a lie!
I heard him, I did!
He’s so nice and just supporting.
‘It’s a lie, It’s a lie!’

Boy was very mad at me,
Screaming, shouting “It’s a lie!”
But I still did not believe him.
Ghost is nice, Ghost is friendly.

I know Ghost, I know him well.
His words always ring like a bell.
Again and again, I keep hearing his words,
They’re like loud birds.

Just when I met him,
He was so nice.
But then I started rolling the dice.
Ghost started changing, giving me advice…

“Just stop, just stop…”
Am I hearing it correctly?
You look like a blob,
He told that directly.
I just accepted.
Isn’t he my friend?

“Don’t put in on…”
The Ghost sometimes said.
“It’s just a conn…”
I always just head to bed.

Why would Ghost say that?
Why did he say that?
The thought is like a gnat,
Always annoying me like a rat.

The ghost knows best!
I always though.
But now I just want to rest,
Just roll in to a knot.

I’m so tired…
But Ghost is here, taking care of me.
All I desired,
Was for some reason tea.

“Tea helps you! Ghost knows.”
Does it really? Will it make the pain go away?
“It will give you energy! It will, It will…”
But the world seems too gray…

Then one day,
I broke the rules of the ghost.
He was not happy, said he felt betray.
I promise Ghost, next time it will be toast!

Ghost loves me,
He cares about me.
His words reach me like the sea.
I listen to him, I trust him and agree.

But Ghost I’m so tired
I’m tired of this.
I’ll do as required.
But I need to dismiss your rules for a bit.

I made the Ghost sad,
I was sad too,
Because following his rules,
Makes me happy too.

Sometimes I break them,
But believe me, I try! I try my hardest!
Look at that girl! That's who I want to become.
But my dream is as magical as star dust.

I wanna make Ghost happy!
Because if he is happy, I am too.
Ghost gets unhappy if I break his rules,
But he praises me If i don’t, then I feel like the color blue.

I was happy with ghost,
Reaching my dream even if it hurts.
But people say he isn’t the host.
They always gave me alerts.

I don’t believe them,
I believe ghost.
I just chew gum.
It’s the most I can do.

Ghost are you happy?
Are you proud of me?
He said he’s not unhappy.
But I can do better! That’s the key!

People don’t like Ghost…
They always say to get away.
But you’re not the host!
You are not the clay of my life in any way!

‘Ghost is mean’
‘Ghost is scary’
‘You’re just a teen so get away from that Ghost!’
That’s what they say, they’re words are like a knife.

It pains me and Ghost very much.
Just let me do what I want!
Why do you worry a bunch?
Are you scared that he will haunt you next?

But, one terrible day ‘she’ came by.
Found the money I didn’t spend,
And started to cry…
I’m not talking to Ghost! I swear!

Saw the plates I haven’t finished,
Realized Ghost was with me all the time.
She treated it like a crime.
And realized why I wouldn’t be there sometimes.

She tried to take the ghost away…
No! No! He’s my friend!
But she pulled the ghost away.
My friendship with Ghost has come to an end…

Why would you do that?
You took him away…
You’re just like that gnat!
I wish I could spray you away!

I sprayed her away,
Breaking her like she broke me.
I felt like the sea,
Doing something and wanting to go back...

I tried to find the Ghost again.
Ghost! Ghost! Are you here?
But I got pulled away with a chain.
Can’t you hear with your ear?

I want Ghost,
I want him so bad.
I can’t be my own host.
I need to add Ghost, even if he’s sad.

I’ve been with him for not so long,
But I want him back,
I’m not as strong,
I can’t sing the same song.

If only Ghost was here,
I would be happier.
Can’t you hear?
I want you back!

Life wasn’t easier with him,
But it was way better.
I can’t go to the gym,
And I can’t be slim.

I wish I had the want,
I wish I could do it.
But I’m useless without Ghost…
It always comes to haunt me.

Ghost, I love you so much.
I just want you back,
Now I just crack,
By wanting you back...