I died today

It’s 30 may

It’s 30th may. It’s how they say.
I died today.
I failed prodigiously on this day.
With my soul to this day I pay.

It’s 30th may.
I died today.

My living body, my breathing Carcass
Celebrates my death anniversary today.
I raise a glass to drink for soberness,
As myself dies an agonising death today.

Its 30th may.
I lost you today,,,,,I lost me today.
Not just the end of the month,
But end of us and the end of me today.

It’s the day of bleeding tears I shed.
Quietly sunk my face in my bed.
Not a hiss of sound are allowed to escape.
Containing the turbulence in my head.

Please forgive me I begged today.
On my knees where I continued to stay.
Keeping all the sentiments a bay.
You just abandoned me today.

It’s 30th may
I died today.

Post this day, the days pass in months.
My gathered self takes the form to attain.
The time breaths some life in my guts.
But when this day arrives, I just die again.

With you not close to me and not near.
Death comes to me every year.
Every year I collect my self with the rains.
But when this day arrives, I just die again.