So much, for so long

Volume in time.

I have loved you so much
And have loved you for so long.
That I don’t know what it feels like .
Not to love you any more.

I have thought of you,
So much and for so long
That I don’t know, what it feels like ,
Not to think of you any more.

I don’t know what it feels like,
Not to sleep with you in my head.
And I wouldn’t know what it feels like,
For the life I live, and till I am dead.

I do not know any more, what it feels like,
To not have you as my 1st thought
When I wake up,
And will never know,
not even when I break up.

If The feeling of remembering you,
Is gone, it’s vanished.
If not remembering you, is the only acceptance.
Then I wanna be discarded and banished.

If my eyes looses it light,
And banned from it visual power.
I’ll still efficiently see you,
Though it would be my darkest hour.

I have started to love my love for you,
The feeling that I own is owned by so few.
I have loved to love you, so much, for so long.
That My poems to me ,they don’t belong.

A silent part of me, a pumping part of me.
Will always be waiting for you.
An unheard voice buried inside me.
Will always be calling for you.

Cuz I have loved you so much
And I have loved you for so long.
That I don’t know what it feel like,
Not to love you any more.