Not that am crying

Broken silence

The silence on my lips,
Break into words that slips.
Your name swiftly makes its way.
Yet again on my tongue as I say.

Your mention went on for a lil long.
May be not as long as deep it was.
The feelings started to felt so strong.
Like a turbulent wave it rose.

My brain does not stop generating your thoughts
My heart does not stop churning your feel.
My veins does not stop feeding you in it.
My primitive wounds re open to unheal.

Shelling tears roll down the frozen face
Not that I am crying.
Disobedient to my un absorbent eyes.
But definitely not that I am crying.

Leaking eye lashes, I keep wiping
not that am crying.
My choking throat ,Gulps in melancholy.
But absolute not that am crying.

The twitching pain in the chest,
Nonchalantly escalates the sensation.
Sentiments are high on painful fest.
Relentlessly in Pursuit for redemption.

The fluid flows effortlessly by default
Not that am crying.
Absurdly trying to camouflage the liquid salt.
But decisively I am not crying.

Just like the person can yet cry,
Without the tears left unshed.
I choose not to cry, regardless
these sliding streaks of moisture are bled.

So bleeding out agony in tears.
Not that am crying.
Not even slightest efforts to sob.
Most assuredly I am not even trying.

Reviews

[barleygirl]

It's very imaginative to write in a million different ways how it can feel to be crying & denying it. Denial is a very powerful tendency for humans & your poem is so persistent, it illustrates how denial can seep into everything. Nice job of expressing feeling thru imagery & bodily sensations (show instead of tell -- first rule of good writing). See note below about noun-verb agreement (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

You sometimes get it wrong on noun and verb agreement (singular & plural).
Examples:
"The silence on my lips,
Break into words that slips."

Silence breaks and words slip
(opposite of what you've written - remove all other words
& just read the noun & verb together to see if it agrees)

Also --
My heart does not stop (correct)
My veins do not stop (needs to be corrected)

[Anjali]

wow. i don't even have a word to show how great your poem is... i loved the concept.. and i really liked the metaphors that you have used here. you clearly have a way with words. this is so beautiful! can't wait to read more from you.

[Mustafa Merchant]

Thanks Anjali. Thank you for such a moral boosting review. I’ll surely share more of my writings.

[Anjali]

you're welcome and i am looking forward to that.

[Najam Us Saher]

The entire poem talks about deep sadness and how worst it feels to feel such. Yet, the strength and courage is shown, loved the repitition of the lines 'not that am crying'
The title must be 'Not'

[¿]

Glad that I caught this intriguing piece again!
Seems like a heart is hurt beyond badly here...I guess the worst feeling is when you try to forget things and repeatedly you fail to do that...Here I read and read and I just loved the fact that you made the character both strong and fragile at a time....Yet I'll say this piece is gonna make someone cry I bet sir...absolutely soulful is this one!
A typo or I didn't get it maybe in stanza 5 last line...is it "absolute" or suffix ly will be added?...I can be wrong as my grammar is just that bad sometimes....
Again thanks for publishing it again :)

[Mustafa Merchant]

Thanks tahsin. Every one is strong and fregole at the same time. We just need to find the people in front of whom we need to remain strong and whom it ok to be fragile with.

[¿]

Indeed agreed! You're heartedly welcome :)