Tears Tears Tears and Many More Tears

(original upload found here: http://truml.com/profile/poetry-detail/102070 )

Tears, tears, tears, and many more tears; 
As they fall I hope that no one hears; 
How vunerable I am inside; 
And I curl up into a small ball; 
To protect my emotions from all; 
So I can be insecurely safe; 
  
Tears, tears, tears, and many more tears; 
My heart has become full of new fears; 
All I want to be is in your arms; 
Where the world can do me no more harm; 
But I'm afraid of my twisted mind; 
  
Tears, tears, tears, and many more tears; 
My mirror's reflection only leers; 
Loathing who I am forced to become; 
As I am my own worst enemy; 
Silently being judged on harsh terms; 
  
Tears, tears, tears, and many more tears; 
Held deep inside for such many long years; 
Now feeling positive emotions; 
Which I had believed to be long gone; 
Feelings I lost with the death of Sean; 
Leave me alone, like I feel inside;

Author's Note

not recently written was written at about the 09/02/2012