I want to hear Goodbye

(original upload found here: http://truml.com/profile/poetry-detail/101031 )

The memories of you 
Are engraved within my heart 
Nothing in this world 
Could ever tear us apart 
Because you’re not here 
Some think that you’re gone 
But I tell them better 
Let’s say you just moved on 
I try to stay positive 
To keep you watching over me 
Some think it’s crazy 
But I know you’ve got to be 
We were pretty close 
I hope I can say 
You were so pretty 
I’ll never forget those days 
You were such a fun person 
And your personality was great 
All the girls loved you 
only some you could hate 
I know how you were 
And how you were so shy 
But I wish you told me one thing 
I wish you would have said goodbye… 
Your future was great 
You had so much in store 
When I’m forced to think of it 
It rots me to the core 
I spend most of my time 
Thinking of you 
And reminiscing of the things 
We said we’d do  
What I wouldn’t give  
To be in your place 
I’d give the whole world 
Just to see your face 
Some say I’m going crazy 
Or maybe insane 
But they don’t understand  
This heartbreaking pain 
You were my drug 
My source to get high 
But I really do wish 
You would have said goodbye… 
I’ve been thinking of the days 
When we used to sit together 
I now cherish those moments 
I also hope you remember 
You’re always in my head 
And I can’t get you out 
I get so mad at times  
That I just want to shout 
I feel as if pieces are missing 
Like a book with no end 
Too late to tell you how I feel 
Now and forever, only a friend 
My old memories of you 
Fly by me fast 
And everything I remember of you 
Is now in the past 
All the sweet thoughts of you 
Brings a tear to my eye 
I miss you so much 
I wish you’d say goodbye… 
I hope heavens good to you 
And I hope you get your Wings 
An maybe when I get there 
You can show me all the beautiful things 
I really don’t want to say it 
But please wait for me 
Knowing your up there 
I really can’t wait to be 
That day when angels came down 
Was a sad day of grief 
When I first found out 
I stood in disbelief 
Although you’re gone 
You still feel so close 
Maybe it’s the thought 
Of missing you the most 
I wish this was a joke 
A foolish student’s lie 
But you have no idea 
Please…tell me goodbye… 
Ill always be here for you,  
You will forever be missed… 

R.I.P. SEAN JAMERSON 2/12/11

Author's Note

not recently written was written at about the 01/02/2012