Its My Fault, My Fault

(original upload found here: http://truml.com/profile/poetry-detail/99943 )

as I sit here all alone; 
I remember to myself; 
that it is all my damn fault;  
I am the one who screwed up; 
I am the one who pushed you away; 
now as I cry to myself; 
I realise its my fault; 
And the tears flow more freely; 
how could I do this to us; 
This should not have happened now; 
If life felt meaningless before; 
Imagine what I feel now; 
Knowing it is all my fault; 
And you just tried to help me; 
See I am afraid of life; 
All cooped up like a caged bird; 
no chance to spread my wings wide; 
always being the strong one; 
but really just dying inside;

Author's Note

not recently written was written at about the 23/01/2012