my daily routine… is there something wrong?A Poem by Jock Engelman(original upload found here: http://truml.com/profile/poetry-detail/97715 )
As I watch the sun set and watch it rise
i hear the sound of my alarm clock can i survive the world today? sleepless nights, eyes burning maybe i will sleep tonight, must keep going as i lay curled on the shower floor i silently cry to myself so tired, yet so awake out to my guym, the barrier between the chaos of the dark passenger as the monster dwelling within tries to control my actions through my day, i’m surrounded yet alone missunderstood, riddiculed, and mocked i wonder why they are happy as i move from class to class i pull my long sleeves down to hide the scars no one must know i’m vunerable until the lonely trip home once i am home, i train my pain away attempting to tire myself out and i complete my homework hoping that i can be loved i lay myself by the shower now knife in hand, maybe tonights the end and as the warm blood flows freely the white floor pools with my blood finally a pain i can understand and as the blood clots, i shower clean i stay up late into the night trying to stitch up my wounds i lay myself down to rest late tonight as a warm fat tear rolls down my cheek i watch the clock spin this is my daily cycle… © 2012 Jock EngelmanAuthor's Note
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Added on April 4, 2012 Last Updated on April 4, 2012 AuthorJock EngelmanNewcastle, New South Wales, AustraliaAboutI am a guy who has gone through a lot over the years, i have many illnesses which i manage quite well. But i am still riddled with many demons. I was bullied for many years, so now i use my years of t.. more..Writing
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