The Eternal Internal Struggle

(original upload found here: http://truml.com/profile/poetry-detail/96884 )

Why are you lying to me 
why cant you leave me be 
why do you have to look like that 
why do u spill your wrist on the mat 
why do I even talk to you 
I know why because you asked me to  
why do I listen to u speak  
when I know perfectly well that you are weak 
why do you command me so  
while my emotions go to and fro 
many battles I have lost 
and lots of money it has cost  
mostly coz of my bad memory  
as I now sit underneath this chestnut tree  
the struggle is still taking place 
the eternal internal struggle  
between my heart, brain and me

Author's Note

not recently written was written at about the 31/12/2011