When I say...

I'm going through a hard time where people don't know how hard it is

When I say I'm broken
I really mean that I am no longer functional
I'm ruined for other relationships
I'm done with being open
I'm done with sharing myself
I'm done being the trying one

I say you broke me because you did
I don't care anymore
I don't try to make people happy
I don't search for ways to please you

When I say you ruined me, I mean you ruined who I was
I can't smile anymore
I can't listen to types of music or movies without tears
I can't build a blanket fort without your laugh

I mean that I am broken because I'm not there
I'm not bubbly and cheery
I'm not the cheerleader I was
I'm the girl who tried to hard
I'm the girl who cared when she shouldn't have

I'm not me
That girl was gone when you sent her off
All that you left her with is a lifeless body
And a fake smile
The fake life she lives to pretend it's okay

I say I'm broken because that's what it feels like
It's as if you're a stuffed animal without the fluff
Just a lifeless being
I've had my heart ripped out by you
I've had my heart ripped out by the only one who cared

Reviews

[alf]

Hi Sam. The problem with heartache is nobody does know what you are feeling. We may all empathize, because every one of us has been there, but we don't know what you are feeling. You have made a great job of getting your feelings on paper, but I sense you are not happy with the outcome, as though you have missed the intent somehow. Loved the poem, the emotion and being able to see between the lines that little glimpse into your sorrow, alf