I don't know what drew me to you. Hell, I might never know. But there was something about in your smile. A kind of broken beauty; a sadness I felt kin to. Something inside us both is broken and I felt I needed to be close to it. That maybe the coming together of two broken souls would fix the shattered pieces of us both. I want to see you smile. To feel your lips pressed to mine. To know you are mine and only mine. I know that that might not ever happen, I'm too broken, or maybe it you. Either way, I've accepted that this is fleeting. Because of that, I will cherish every stolen kiss, I will hold on to every touch, but I will not let myself fall too deeply into this.
I will not let myself get lost in this, whatever the hell this even is. Because if I do, I may mistake this feeling of freedom for something more, and I just can't let myself feel that deeply again. The pain of love is too unbearable to handle anymore.
So I will cover my heart with brick and mortar and I will steal my soul away from myself. I will not let myself go there again. And although your lips are soft as velvet and your touch sends fire through my body, I will not fall for you. Though your laugh is my favorite sound and your voice is my favorite song, I will not let you in.
My walls are being built. My heart has hardened. I will not be broken by you.