In My Lost State

in loss we find truth...

found in a place

of loss and disgrace

suffering in the darkness

of my confused state

laying awake

in the noise of no sound

terrified by my thoughts

because of which my heart pounds

curled up in my corner

calling the light around the bend

i am one of many mourners

with much hardship still to pend

crawling to redemption

and blinded by its light

i pray this no deception and

my heart still pounds in fright.

forgivness must come quickly

for if not i will stay grieved

this feeling leaves me sickly

in my mind my heart and me

i've found myself a place

but sill with in the loss and in disgrace

 still suffering in the darkness

in my confused and mangled state.