I Am So Sorry Sometimes

I Am So Sorry Sometimes

 

 

 

I am so sorry sometimes

that I’ll never see Paris in the spring

 

that I never had a church wedding

or learned how to play the piano

 

that I can’t remember

Christmas mornings as a child

or what my father smelled like

 

that I never went fishing with my brother

on mornings when I could have slept in

 

that too many winters have long since past

since I’ve been home

 

that my sister and my parents

never had the privilege of growing old

 

that it’s been years since my last confession,

 

and I am so sorry sometimes.

 

 

 

Reviews

[Norman 223]

Recalling missed opportunities may seem traumatic, but they are in the past. The future presents its own solutions, and the earlier experiences can help avoid similar pitfalls.
We all do things we regret, but guilt itself resolves nothing, and may even block a reasoned judgement.

[Kelly Scheppers]

Very intuitively put. Thank you, Norman!

[Ted Kniffen]

"Regrets; I've had a few..." Life seems to be full of 'what ifs' & 'should'ves'. Whether through choice or happenstance they are gone...but clearly not forgotten.
No, we cannot bring back some of the people we miss but we can be thankful they were in our lives. Sometimes a word...someone's laugh...or a scent will trigger a memory and they are with us again.

As for the piano, it's never too late.

[Kelly Scheppers]

...thanks, Ted. I think I may consider it!

[Gee]

My biggest regret is marrying in secret, therefore denying my father in law his proudest day, to walk his daughter down the aisle, to give her hand. As a father to a daughter myself ( 18 years old, nearly) I would be heartbroken if she did the same. I will never forgive myself, never.
Really well written Kelly.
Hope all is well.

[Kelly Scheppers]

Surely the years you have enriched his life being the husband that you are to his daughter, has softened a bit to the point where he's already forgiven you. I'll be looking forward to seeing those wedding pictures here, when you walk your daughter down the aisle! Many thanks and the very best, Gordon!

[Alexa Apothic Red]

Wow, sombering.. ridden with regret, longing, self-induced guilt and shame. I get the sense of the Catholic undertone, which is definitely what religion does: guilt and shame. Faith should be freeing to the soul, and instead you’re guilted by the should’ves.. at any rate, I am sorry for many of the same things, and I’m sorry that you’ve missed and never experienced everything. Even though some things you can’t change, why can’t you still see Paris in the spring???? Let’s book some tickets and go! I’ve never seen Paris period. One of my romantic goals too... perhaps why I took so many French classes in high school...

[Kelly Scheppers]

My bucket list actually has two columns - what's "doable", like the 911 Memorial, and what's possible but highly unlikely, like Paris. But who knows what tomorrow will bring? Thank you, girl!

[Alexa Apothic Red]

I agree.. Tomorrow can bring infinite possibilities.. I prefer to hang amid the vast possibilities. It seems to me life always introduces new twists in the plot. We’re continually prodded our from among our comfort zones.. and you never know what will unfold... you’ve found another Parisian dreamer in me. I’m afraid with my romantic soul, if I went I’d never come back!

[Alexa Apothic Red]

*out not our

[George David Hope]

Great write. I guess we all have regrets, things we wished we'd done, things we had said or hadn't. You've got me thinking of the things I could have done better now. Really enjoyed it and it's made me think

[Kelly Scheppers]

It's a feel good feeling for me whenever I can make my reader relate to what I've written. Thank you, George!

[...Relic...]

I think part of life is having regrets. I wish I had played the violin. ha There are more but it goes to show I can relate entirely. :)

[Kelly Scheppers]

My son took it up in fifth grade, but it didn't last long. Such a beautiful instrument, though. Many thanks, Tim.

[Ken Simm.]

'Its been years since my last confession', no it hasn't.
My regrets are different (done a couple on your list) but I find this poem really hits me. Beautifully written.

[Kelly Scheppers]

Your affirmations are always most welcomed, Ken. Thank you.

[Roland Petrov]

I like the use of the word "sometimes". These regrets come and go; they don't define who you are. Is the last one truly a regret or more tongue in cheek? Does the fishing couplet really need "could have"? A lovely poem again, Kelly; don't know how you do them so consistently. Oh, about Paris in the Spring: maybe next year?

[Kelly Scheppers]

Good to see that smile again behind those tulips. Thank you, Roland!

[Ben Taylor]

This tore me up. It's so easy to spot missed opportunities after they've passed, and things that seem unimportant at the time (how my father smells) will be heart wrenching when forgotten.

You conveyed the emotions so well. Nicely written. Thank you.

[Kelly Scheppers]

I am most thankful you enjoyed it. Thank you, Ben!

[emmajoy]

There are pauses we need gasp into ourselves - until - until time when they demand disclosure, dear Kelly. And seeimingly, here you have, superbly well.

Most of us have regrets, but, not all of us could lay them so beautifully or touchingly so that readers can tear up and nod, understanding. We each have our own lists of sorries, didn't, haven't..

Such finely expressed heart laid words here..

[Kelly Scheppers]

My heart rejoices when you're here. Thank you dear friend!

[emmajoy]

Your words always hold a something special in their shadows. What we discover is inevitably personal but relevant. Nuff said.. Hug.